Directions:
1.) Find your stalkers! go here: http://apps.facebook.com/fancheck/
2.) Write the names of everyone (1-20) on your stalkerlist below.
3.) Don't read the questions first!! You'll kill it!
4.) Tag everyone you mentioned.
If you're tagged, repost this note with your stalkers!!
1. Whitney Yuska
2. Rebecca Shira Shorstein
3. Eric Sengson
4. Jill Demchack
5. Rob Pelance
6. Whitney Winfield
7. DeMar Austin Neal
8. Danielle Krawczeski
9. Steve Pozgay
10. Monica Pasquini
11. Brett Karlin
12. Chelsa Greenberg
13. Holly Cameron
14. Diana Alejandra Galeano
15. Andrew Wilson
16. Michele Lipton Joyce
17. Elizabeth Marcantonio
18. Korey Beth Dixon
19. Kim Goodman
20. Josh Willet
→Are you honestly surprised about any of these?
Yeah. So I'm thinking this application only survey's the friends you've had interaction with in the past month. Definitely not overall.
→How did you meet 4?
At the auditions for TMM. She was the nicest person. So supportive and friendly. She even gave me her number in case we didn't see each other after the casting process.
→How much does 6 mean to you?
I will miss her. Definitely a highlight of the summer and I will look forward to seeing her at Christmastime!
→Describe 14 in two words.
Loyal. Beautiful.
→What is your most fond memory with 15?
Bea. Whitney. Peanut Butter.
→Do you know all of 2's secrets?
I'm sure not all of them, but I think I know a fair amount of them! Loveeee.
→If you could marry either 1 or 20, who would it be?
As much as I love Josh and we are awesome coworkers and partners in crime at clubs, Whitney wins in the long run. In fact, we're probably already married. Victoria's Secret thinks so.
→How far do you think you are on 5's stalkerlist?
ummmm. probably not that far.
→When is the next time you're going to see 7?
Aw man, I have no idea. I talked to him today though on the phone! Maybe in October for his recital? Doubtful though.
→When is the last time you saw 17?
Last night at cheesecake factory for dinner!
→How do you think 13 feels about you?
I think she considers me a close friend, as I do her.
→Are 11 and 12 anything like each other?
hahhahahahahahahahahaa
→Describe the relationship between 14 and 20.
They've never actually met, but would definitely get along quite well.
→Would you ever want to date 18?
I care about Korey, but not in that way.
→What do you think 9's parents are like?
No idea.
→Is 10 single?
Sort of?
→If you had never met 12, how would your life be different?
She wouldn't have been in OpShop with me!
→If you could tell 8 one thing right now, what would it be?
Where ARE YOU!?
→What is the funniest thing you've ever heard 16 do?
... i have no idea.
→How did you meet 15?
Through Whitney post airport my first time in Boston. We visited Chelsea. Then we had sex. It was love at first sight.
→How did you come to be friends with 10?
I honestly don't know. Mutual friends? Closer during the Mikado? I really don't know!
→If 3 died, would you be lost?
Who would sing High C's?
→What is the weirdest thing you've ever seen 4 do?
Jill's like perfect. She doesn't do weird things.
→What is 7's only weakness?
Weakness? I don't really know actually.
→Are you friends with any of 19's friends?
Only BK.
→Do you think 16 and 8 would make a good couple?
No.
→What is the most badass thing you've ever seen or heard 12 do?
???
→What is the one thing 20 most exceeds at?
Being the best coworker ayver.
→If 2 and 3 hated each other, what would change?
Absolutely nothing.
→If 2 said to you that she/he loved 7, what would your response be?
hahahahahahahaha that's perfection.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
remorse
I do a horrible job keeping this up. I kept a livejournal in middle and high school purely because my parents would allow it. I went online every day and updated when they weren't paying attention, all the while swearing on someone's grave that I had deleted it.
I want to keep this thing to know what happens in my daily life. What I found funny, sad, amusing, the usual. And I never think about it. I want to try to keep a more accurate blog. Maybe a few times a week even?
I just found out my aunt (who, for all intents and purposes is my grandmother) has Alzheimer's and dementia. She doesn't recognize many friends or family anymore. It happened a few months ago and I had no idea. My family withheld it from me for awhile since there was nothing I could do about it and I wasn't really in any stable state of mind.
Without sounding callous, I was more emotionally moved by it than I expected. I spoke with her when I first returned from Boston in late February/ early March and, though she was old, I didn't think in any way we were heading down this path. I thought she was getting older clearly, and physically taxed. Apparently a month or so later the doctors made the diagnosis.
I was such a child. I was so lazy about them, and though I cared, I was always doing something when they called the house. I would talk with them but have to run to do something else. And now, here I am, filled with guilt, regret, remorse and overall sadness. Tomorrow I'll be fine, but it's sad to know that she's alive and in a childlike state of bliss and I'll never be able to fix my lazy actions. Regret is overwhelmingly powerful.
I had cinnamon toast crunch waffles with them. I watched Lawrence Welk with them. I sat on the floor too close to the TV with my sweater over my knees so that it stretched and cocooned my whole body (My parents never allowed either of those things.) I loved them. They thought I still loved cats like when I was 7. They were so supportive and loving and caring. I wish I hadn't been so indifferent as I got older. Maturity is so much an experience of learning from your mistakes. I wish I could fly out to California to be with them. To hold her hand, to say I'm sorry, to tell her I love her. It's hard knowing she's there and breathing and thinking, but won't register or remember any of it.
I think what is hardest is knowing that, most likely, the next time I'll see her will be for the funeral. And even if that were to change, she wouldn't be able to remember it anyways.
I want to keep this thing to know what happens in my daily life. What I found funny, sad, amusing, the usual. And I never think about it. I want to try to keep a more accurate blog. Maybe a few times a week even?
I just found out my aunt (who, for all intents and purposes is my grandmother) has Alzheimer's and dementia. She doesn't recognize many friends or family anymore. It happened a few months ago and I had no idea. My family withheld it from me for awhile since there was nothing I could do about it and I wasn't really in any stable state of mind.
Without sounding callous, I was more emotionally moved by it than I expected. I spoke with her when I first returned from Boston in late February/ early March and, though she was old, I didn't think in any way we were heading down this path. I thought she was getting older clearly, and physically taxed. Apparently a month or so later the doctors made the diagnosis.
I was such a child. I was so lazy about them, and though I cared, I was always doing something when they called the house. I would talk with them but have to run to do something else. And now, here I am, filled with guilt, regret, remorse and overall sadness. Tomorrow I'll be fine, but it's sad to know that she's alive and in a childlike state of bliss and I'll never be able to fix my lazy actions. Regret is overwhelmingly powerful.
I had cinnamon toast crunch waffles with them. I watched Lawrence Welk with them. I sat on the floor too close to the TV with my sweater over my knees so that it stretched and cocooned my whole body (My parents never allowed either of those things.) I loved them. They thought I still loved cats like when I was 7. They were so supportive and loving and caring. I wish I hadn't been so indifferent as I got older. Maturity is so much an experience of learning from your mistakes. I wish I could fly out to California to be with them. To hold her hand, to say I'm sorry, to tell her I love her. It's hard knowing she's there and breathing and thinking, but won't register or remember any of it.
I think what is hardest is knowing that, most likely, the next time I'll see her will be for the funeral. And even if that were to change, she wouldn't be able to remember it anyways.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
50 Truths i'msolame.
[1] Who was your last text from?
Whitney
[2] Where was your default pic taken?
A drag bar in Fort Lauderdale
[3] Your relationship status?
Single
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yes, but just due to life.
[5] What is your current mood?
Dead. So so dead.
[6] What are your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Allison and Robin.
[7]Where do you wish you were right now?
Asleep.
[8] Have a crazy side?
I guess?
[9]Ever had a near death experience?
Unfortunately.
[10] Something you do a lot?
Laugh and Sing and Cry and Hug and be happy. Wow more lame sounding.
[11] Angry at anyone?
Not at all.
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
I don't like anyone.
[14] Is there anything you are really excited about?
NEXT WEEKNED JUNE 11 TAKE YOUR TOP OFF.
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Absolutely
[16] What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Sleep. OMG sleep.
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Whitney.
[18] What is your favorite song?
Too many. Right now, i'm a fan of Adam Lambert's Mad World (OMG I'm SUCH A DWEEB)
[19] What are you doing right now?
Going. to. bed.
[20] Who do you trust right now?
A few people, but they are teh bezt.
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Forever 21 actuallly.
[22]Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Yes
[23] Who is/are your friend(s) that live closest to you?
Rachel, Brett, Diana
[24] Describe your life in one word?
Roller coaster
[25] Who are you thinking of right now?
Sleep.
[26] What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.
[27] What are you listening to?
Rufus Wainright.
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Brett.
[29] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
My mom sort of? No yelling really involved.
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Occasionally because of nerves. But I don't like anyone.
[31] What is your natural hair color?
Dirty Blonde.
[32] Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Whitney or Andrew online. or Tess.
[33] Who was the last person to make you sad?
My Mom.
[34] What do you hear?
Coldplay.
[35] Is your hair curly or straight?
Wavyish?
[36] Do you have a best friend?
Yes, a few
[37] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Yup. And the same sex haha.
[38] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Occasionally
[39] Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. All the time - especially in high school.
[41] Are you happy with life right now?
It's been better and it's been worse. I'm content enough.
[42] Are you currently jealous?
Nope
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Ring on right ring finger, watch and tiffany necklace
[44] What were you doing Friday night?
Rehearsal.
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
Not really to my knowledge.
[48] What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Oh god.
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?
11 because i'mstupid.
l50]Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes
Whitney
[2] Where was your default pic taken?
A drag bar in Fort Lauderdale
[3] Your relationship status?
Single
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yes, but just due to life.
[5] What is your current mood?
Dead. So so dead.
[6] What are your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Allison and Robin.
[7]Where do you wish you were right now?
Asleep.
[8] Have a crazy side?
I guess?
[9]Ever had a near death experience?
Unfortunately.
[10] Something you do a lot?
Laugh and Sing and Cry and Hug and be happy. Wow more lame sounding.
[11] Angry at anyone?
Not at all.
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
I don't like anyone.
[14] Is there anything you are really excited about?
NEXT WEEKNED JUNE 11 TAKE YOUR TOP OFF.
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Absolutely
[16] What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Sleep. OMG sleep.
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Whitney.
[18] What is your favorite song?
Too many. Right now, i'm a fan of Adam Lambert's Mad World (OMG I'm SUCH A DWEEB)
[19] What are you doing right now?
Going. to. bed.
[20] Who do you trust right now?
A few people, but they are teh bezt.
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Forever 21 actuallly.
[22]Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Yes
[23] Who is/are your friend(s) that live closest to you?
Rachel, Brett, Diana
[24] Describe your life in one word?
Roller coaster
[25] Who are you thinking of right now?
Sleep.
[26] What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.
[27] What are you listening to?
Rufus Wainright.
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Brett.
[29] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
My mom sort of? No yelling really involved.
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Occasionally because of nerves. But I don't like anyone.
[31] What is your natural hair color?
Dirty Blonde.
[32] Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Whitney or Andrew online. or Tess.
[33] Who was the last person to make you sad?
My Mom.
[34] What do you hear?
Coldplay.
[35] Is your hair curly or straight?
Wavyish?
[36] Do you have a best friend?
Yes, a few
[37] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Yup. And the same sex haha.
[38] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Occasionally
[39] Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. All the time - especially in high school.
[41] Are you happy with life right now?
It's been better and it's been worse. I'm content enough.
[42] Are you currently jealous?
Nope
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Ring on right ring finger, watch and tiffany necklace
[44] What were you doing Friday night?
Rehearsal.
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
Not really to my knowledge.
[48] What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Oh god.
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?
11 because i'mstupid.
l50]Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Water
2. last phone call = Tess
3. last text message = Whitney
4. last song you listened to = Circus by Britney Spears (don't judge)
5. last time you cried = Today ugh.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes
7. been cheated on = I don't think so.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Eh, not really.
9. lost someone special = Not really
10. been depressed = Yes
11. been drunk and threw up = Yesbutthatsmylife.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Green
13. Blue
14. Teal
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yup
16. Fallen out of love = No
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes
18. Met someone who changed you = Honestly, I don't think I have
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes. Oh my goodness yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Oh whatever probably?
21. Kissed someone on your friends list = Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = I would like to say that i know all of my friends in real life
23. How many kids do you want to have = Two - a boy and a girl. More cliche caroline.
24. Do you have any pets = Melodyyyyy
25. Do you want to change your name = When I was 5, i thought it would be an awesome idea to change my name to Rainbow Sparkle Diamond Bright. Looking back on it, I'm set with Caroline.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = 21st - went to bars in Cambridge and drank my life away.
27. What time did you wake up today = 7:15 AM. The real world sucks.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = JUNE 10TH.
30. Do you have plants = No?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = I wish I could delete this year from my life. And I would also wish I had a better appreciation of college when I was in it.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes. What a dumb question.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? This fucking COLD.
35. Most visited webpage? Oh my god. Twitter may be upping facebook. Or email.
36. Whats your real name? Caroline Christine Oliveira
37. Nicknames? Sweet Caroline, Caralala, Caca, Carebear. I think that's it.
38. Relationship Status? Single
39. Zodiac sign? Libra
40. Male or female? Female
41. Elementary? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
42. Middle School? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
43. High school/College? = Dreyfoos School of the Arts/FSU
44. Hair colour? Brown
45. Long or short? Shortish?
46. Height? = 5'6"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? No, actually.
48: What do you like about yourself? I'm pretty nice.
49. Piercing? 2 in each ear.
50. Tattoos? None
51. Righty or lefty? = Righty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery? Wisdom teeth.
53. First piercing? Earrings
54. First best friend? Sasha or Meerali at Pine Crest
55. First sport you joined? Tennis
56. First vacation? Oh my god I have no idea. We were traveling when I was tiny.
58. First pair of trainers = What? What is this?
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = I had a smoothie a few hours ago?
60. Drinking = Water still
61. I'm about to = Go to bed
62. Listening to = Falling Away with You by Muse (So much less judgement now)
63. Waiting on = Mucinex to kick in.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Yes
65. Get Married? = Yes.
66. Career? = Music somehow in there. I would love to be self sufficient financially off of my voice.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice butt or nice legs = Butt i guess?
73. Sensitive or loud? = Depends
74. Hook-up or relationship? Sigh. Overall relationship. Right now in my life, just hook-up.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? Yes
77. Drank hard liquor? Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
79. Sex on first date = Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart? Yes
81. Had your own heart broken? Yes
82. Been arrested ? Nope
83. Turned someone down? Yes
84. Cried when someone died? Yes
85. Fallen for a friend? I guess so.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself? Lately? No.
87. Miracles? Yes
88. Love at first sight? I'm skeptical
89. Heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = No
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = Yes
93. Ghosts = Sometimes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = No
95. Did you sing today? Yes, but not to my best judgement
96. Ever cheated on somebody? Never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you? About a year and a half. Last January maybe? I would love to relive Spring 2008.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it? Right after spring Semester got out last year was pretty awesome.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Right now, yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Nowhere where anyone will read it.
1. last beverage = Water
2. last phone call = Tess
3. last text message = Whitney
4. last song you listened to = Circus by Britney Spears (don't judge)
5. last time you cried = Today ugh.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes
7. been cheated on = I don't think so.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Eh, not really.
9. lost someone special = Not really
10. been depressed = Yes
11. been drunk and threw up = Yesbutthatsmylife.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Green
13. Blue
14. Teal
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yup
16. Fallen out of love = No
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes
18. Met someone who changed you = Honestly, I don't think I have
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes. Oh my goodness yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Oh whatever probably?
21. Kissed someone on your friends list = Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = I would like to say that i know all of my friends in real life
23. How many kids do you want to have = Two - a boy and a girl. More cliche caroline.
24. Do you have any pets = Melodyyyyy
25. Do you want to change your name = When I was 5, i thought it would be an awesome idea to change my name to Rainbow Sparkle Diamond Bright. Looking back on it, I'm set with Caroline.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = 21st - went to bars in Cambridge and drank my life away.
27. What time did you wake up today = 7:15 AM. The real world sucks.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = JUNE 10TH.
30. Do you have plants = No?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = I wish I could delete this year from my life. And I would also wish I had a better appreciation of college when I was in it.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes. What a dumb question.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? This fucking COLD.
35. Most visited webpage? Oh my god. Twitter may be upping facebook. Or email.
36. Whats your real name? Caroline Christine Oliveira
37. Nicknames? Sweet Caroline, Caralala, Caca, Carebear. I think that's it.
38. Relationship Status? Single
39. Zodiac sign? Libra
40. Male or female? Female
41. Elementary? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
42. Middle School? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
43. High school/College? = Dreyfoos School of the Arts/FSU
44. Hair colour? Brown
45. Long or short? Shortish?
46. Height? = 5'6"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? No, actually.
48: What do you like about yourself? I'm pretty nice.
49. Piercing? 2 in each ear.
50. Tattoos? None
51. Righty or lefty? = Righty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery? Wisdom teeth.
53. First piercing? Earrings
54. First best friend? Sasha or Meerali at Pine Crest
55. First sport you joined? Tennis
56. First vacation? Oh my god I have no idea. We were traveling when I was tiny.
58. First pair of trainers = What? What is this?
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = I had a smoothie a few hours ago?
60. Drinking = Water still
61. I'm about to = Go to bed
62. Listening to = Falling Away with You by Muse (So much less judgement now)
63. Waiting on = Mucinex to kick in.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Yes
65. Get Married? = Yes.
66. Career? = Music somehow in there. I would love to be self sufficient financially off of my voice.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice butt or nice legs = Butt i guess?
73. Sensitive or loud? = Depends
74. Hook-up or relationship? Sigh. Overall relationship. Right now in my life, just hook-up.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? Yes
77. Drank hard liquor? Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
79. Sex on first date = Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart? Yes
81. Had your own heart broken? Yes
82. Been arrested ? Nope
83. Turned someone down? Yes
84. Cried when someone died? Yes
85. Fallen for a friend? I guess so.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself? Lately? No.
87. Miracles? Yes
88. Love at first sight? I'm skeptical
89. Heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = No
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = Yes
93. Ghosts = Sometimes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = No
95. Did you sing today? Yes, but not to my best judgement
96. Ever cheated on somebody? Never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you? About a year and a half. Last January maybe? I would love to relive Spring 2008.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it? Right after spring Semester got out last year was pretty awesome.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Right now, yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Nowhere where anyone will read it.
Friday, May 29, 2009
I think I'm just going to use this blog for my own personal surveys.
More things about me no one ever wanted or needed to know.
If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Pasquini.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. Urgent Care for ankle.
When were you on the phone last? And with who?
2 minutes ago with Nicole.
What are you excited for?
I think Tallahassee? I'll know tomorrow.
What were you doing yesterday?
Dying physically, working and talking to CMD
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Mom.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Wine.
Have a best friend?
Can officially count on one hand today - Whitney, CMD, Brett, Tess and Diana
Are you scared to fall in love?
No, but I'm reluctant.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes, but they don't know what they are getting into.
Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Honestly the two off.
What time is it right this second?
10:29
What do you want right now?
A hug.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Probably Rachel?
When was the last time you cried?
10 minutes ago.
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Definitely.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
At first.
How fast does your mind change?
Life decisions, very slowly. Home decor and fashion, it's like men thinking about sex. Every seven seconds.
I bet you miss somebody right now.
Always.
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No, but tomorrow is a new day.
Why do you think so many people cheat?
Looking for something new? bored?
Tell me what's on your mind?
I'd rather just let tomorrow be tomorrow.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
West. Palm. Beach.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yes, Halloween 2003.
When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
UM I guess earlier today?
When is your next road trip?
Tomorrow?
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes.
How's your heart?
A little deflated.
Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Yes.
Do you think somebody's in love with you?
No.
What are you planning on doing after this?
Bed. Burning CDs. Packing.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes.
Who do you not get along with?
Michelle Eston
What does your 3rd most recent text say?
"Of course babes!"
What are you wearing right now?
T-shirt, sweat pants
When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
NO idea.
What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Cameron and Cecilia right this second i guess.
How did you feel when you woke up?
Um, pain.
Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not particularly.
Do you crack your knuckles?
Nope.
What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Talking to CMD on the phone.
What are your LEGAL initials?
CCO
Who's the first B in your contacts?
Brett.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Last night with CMD.
Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Yes.
Last awkward moment?
Today phone.
Are you afraid of the dark?
Not really - I used to be!
Do you have good vision?
Not great not horrid.
Have you ever tripped someone?
I don't think so...
Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.
Are you Irish?
Nope
Do you use chap stick?
Yes. I'm never without it.
Do you have any scars?
Yes. Chin. Fucking homeless bitch. And on my hand and side from rocks when I was like 10.
Is there someone you will never forgive?
Nope. Grudges waste time.
Name the last person to text you?
Monica
Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Probably. I bet i'll marry someone a lot older than me.
Can you go in public looking like you do?
Nope.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yup.
What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I sleep on the stage right side.
What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Drink.
Do you fall for people easily?
Nope.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes in rehearsal?
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yes.
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes.
Want someone back in your life?
Just want to rewind 2 years.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Yes. I will make it better.
What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
Grey.
Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
I guess so?
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yes.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Um, I'm single?
Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm usually very naturally happy.
Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Not really.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Um. Right wrist. Not really sure what.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
More often than I should sometimes.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Depends.
If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Pasquini.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. Urgent Care for ankle.
When were you on the phone last? And with who?
2 minutes ago with Nicole.
What are you excited for?
I think Tallahassee? I'll know tomorrow.
What were you doing yesterday?
Dying physically, working and talking to CMD
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Mom.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Wine.
Have a best friend?
Can officially count on one hand today - Whitney, CMD, Brett, Tess and Diana
Are you scared to fall in love?
No, but I'm reluctant.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes, but they don't know what they are getting into.
Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Honestly the two off.
What time is it right this second?
10:29
What do you want right now?
A hug.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Probably Rachel?
When was the last time you cried?
10 minutes ago.
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Definitely.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
At first.
How fast does your mind change?
Life decisions, very slowly. Home decor and fashion, it's like men thinking about sex. Every seven seconds.
I bet you miss somebody right now.
Always.
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No, but tomorrow is a new day.
Why do you think so many people cheat?
Looking for something new? bored?
Tell me what's on your mind?
I'd rather just let tomorrow be tomorrow.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
West. Palm. Beach.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yes, Halloween 2003.
When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
UM I guess earlier today?
When is your next road trip?
Tomorrow?
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes.
How's your heart?
A little deflated.
Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Yes.
Do you think somebody's in love with you?
No.
What are you planning on doing after this?
Bed. Burning CDs. Packing.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes.
Who do you not get along with?
Michelle Eston
What does your 3rd most recent text say?
"Of course babes!"
What are you wearing right now?
T-shirt, sweat pants
When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
NO idea.
What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Cameron and Cecilia right this second i guess.
How did you feel when you woke up?
Um, pain.
Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not particularly.
Do you crack your knuckles?
Nope.
What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Talking to CMD on the phone.
What are your LEGAL initials?
CCO
Who's the first B in your contacts?
Brett.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Last night with CMD.
Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Yes.
Last awkward moment?
Today phone.
Are you afraid of the dark?
Not really - I used to be!
Do you have good vision?
Not great not horrid.
Have you ever tripped someone?
I don't think so...
Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.
Are you Irish?
Nope
Do you use chap stick?
Yes. I'm never without it.
Do you have any scars?
Yes. Chin. Fucking homeless bitch. And on my hand and side from rocks when I was like 10.
Is there someone you will never forgive?
Nope. Grudges waste time.
Name the last person to text you?
Monica
Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Probably. I bet i'll marry someone a lot older than me.
Can you go in public looking like you do?
Nope.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yup.
What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I sleep on the stage right side.
What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Drink.
Do you fall for people easily?
Nope.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes in rehearsal?
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yes.
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes.
Want someone back in your life?
Just want to rewind 2 years.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Yes. I will make it better.
What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
Grey.
Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
I guess so?
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yes.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Um, I'm single?
Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm usually very naturally happy.
Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Not really.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Um. Right wrist. Not really sure what.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
More often than I should sometimes.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Depends.
Friday, November 21, 2008
En Route
Technology is amazing. I'm on a bus traveling to NYC right now with internet access. INTERNET access. Well, I'm amazed by this.
On the down side, it's really quite uncomfortable and I'm feeling somewhat claustrophobic in this window seat with the guy in front of me seat reclined. All complaining aside though, I'm making the quickest trip known to man to spend approximately 8 hours of gloriousness with Rebecca, my lovah. Yeah, you would totally do this too if you were in my position.
Work week 2 down. I'm just so glad I'm employed. And it's a casual office with really nice people. I just hope I'm doing a good job. It's a little hard to tell since I don't know what I'm comparing myself to. Yet again, I am the youngest person in the office. The average age is early 30s I would guess, but I'm still the youngest by a year or so.
I've been having regrets about graduating early. I don't know how my family would have done it financially speaking and I don't know what classes I would have taken. I would have probably been extremely unhappy. But, it would have been comfortable. I would have been with my friends. I would have been able to see some of the people I love more than life itself every day. Not all of them - one's in Virginia and two are actually with me in Boston, but I would have been able to see most of them. And regardless, I've been so strange lately and impossible to reach (both on the phone and in any sort of emotional sense.) But it still would have been safe.
Thanksgiving is on Thursday. For the first time in 20 years, I won't be at home and I'm not sure what I'm doing. And it's strange. And I won't be home on Christmas Eve either. That is another thing I miss about school - the ability to have vacations that span weeks.
I'm at a turning poing - hopefully a turning point of the better. We'll see.
On the down side, it's really quite uncomfortable and I'm feeling somewhat claustrophobic in this window seat with the guy in front of me seat reclined. All complaining aside though, I'm making the quickest trip known to man to spend approximately 8 hours of gloriousness with Rebecca, my lovah. Yeah, you would totally do this too if you were in my position.
Work week 2 down. I'm just so glad I'm employed. And it's a casual office with really nice people. I just hope I'm doing a good job. It's a little hard to tell since I don't know what I'm comparing myself to. Yet again, I am the youngest person in the office. The average age is early 30s I would guess, but I'm still the youngest by a year or so.
I've been having regrets about graduating early. I don't know how my family would have done it financially speaking and I don't know what classes I would have taken. I would have probably been extremely unhappy. But, it would have been comfortable. I would have been with my friends. I would have been able to see some of the people I love more than life itself every day. Not all of them - one's in Virginia and two are actually with me in Boston, but I would have been able to see most of them. And regardless, I've been so strange lately and impossible to reach (both on the phone and in any sort of emotional sense.) But it still would have been safe.
Thanksgiving is on Thursday. For the first time in 20 years, I won't be at home and I'm not sure what I'm doing. And it's strange. And I won't be home on Christmas Eve either. That is another thing I miss about school - the ability to have vacations that span weeks.
I'm at a turning poing - hopefully a turning point of the better. We'll see.
Friday, October 31, 2008
All Hallow's Eve
Working 8 to 5 makes you tired. Even though have the day I email everyone I know.
I'm going to start writing in this blog more often now. How in the world am I going to be able to look back at this time in my life if I don't record it?
This economy proves to be the most terrible time ever to try to find a job. Be happy if you're still in college. After countless interviews and less than a week of temping, I'm hoping that one of the interviews I've had recently will pan out.
Last weekend Caitlin and I went out toe harvard for a party and out to a club afterwards. Harvard people are not friendly and I know that yahtzee could be a clique, but I'm not sure even one person came to talk to us. And we were epically underdressed. Too pretentious for me. The only way we would have fit in the entire evening would have been for us to go find our formal wear, load on the make up and through on those 3 inch heels. We embraced our fashion "disaster" according to Harvard and danced in our own corner. We made a random friend (who I discovered to be about 29 after talking with him) who followed us and stuck with us but was painfully shy.
I met my future husband last week while waiting for almost an hour in a line outside a bar. Granted, he didn't know he was my future husband, but that's neither here nor there. He had some fancy job with computer software in the financial district and was so much fun and cute. But we never got into the club so we all parted ways. Knowing my luck, he's probably gay.
Temping in this healthcare place has been fine thus far. It's nice to actually use what mental capacity I have. It's sort of amusing that I'm ending up in a branch of the healthcare field. Granted, I'm in charge of organizing and updating ongoing research grants, but still, it's a temp job that doesn't involve filing or labeling or other random functions that someone who's brain was oozing out of their ears could still manage to accopmlish.
I'm happy here but not complete. I have no money and I'm tired of living off the tiniest amount of money. I miss music. I miss singing and performing. I miss rehearsal. I'm unfulfilled. I'm just thankful I'm able to put my finger down on what it is that makes me feel this way. I also miss the people who just understand me. I thought I would have friends like that here, but with the exception of a couple, I've been a little disappointed. I really need to stop complaining - I know things could be much worse. I should be counting my blessings. I'm just being emo.
I'm a freaking gimp. I have this stupid air cast that I have to wear all weekend. I look ridiculous. I let a sprain go for too long and now I'm bound to this inconvenient, uncomfortable, bulky, itchy and awkward leg/ankle brace/air cast shit. I even had to go to pediatric emergency care because the hospital ushers anyone 21 and under to that wing of the hospital. Then I waited 3 hours for them to tell me I had a sprain (quel surprise). And getting home was more difficult than if I had tried to cook thanksgiving dinner on my own. Halloween is not a good night to travel. Let's also talk about how I accidentally went the wrong way on the bus, so I hopped off at a T station. Then I had to transfer trains, but the station in the opposite direction was closed. So, I traveled back in a stop to transfer over to an outbound change. I finally arrived home at 8:30. Happy Halloween.
I will promptly stop complaining and whining and sleep. Tomorrow should prove to be an interesting day.
I'm going to start writing in this blog more often now. How in the world am I going to be able to look back at this time in my life if I don't record it?
This economy proves to be the most terrible time ever to try to find a job. Be happy if you're still in college. After countless interviews and less than a week of temping, I'm hoping that one of the interviews I've had recently will pan out.
Last weekend Caitlin and I went out toe harvard for a party and out to a club afterwards. Harvard people are not friendly and I know that yahtzee could be a clique, but I'm not sure even one person came to talk to us. And we were epically underdressed. Too pretentious for me. The only way we would have fit in the entire evening would have been for us to go find our formal wear, load on the make up and through on those 3 inch heels. We embraced our fashion "disaster" according to Harvard and danced in our own corner. We made a random friend (who I discovered to be about 29 after talking with him) who followed us and stuck with us but was painfully shy.
I met my future husband last week while waiting for almost an hour in a line outside a bar. Granted, he didn't know he was my future husband, but that's neither here nor there. He had some fancy job with computer software in the financial district and was so much fun and cute. But we never got into the club so we all parted ways. Knowing my luck, he's probably gay.
Temping in this healthcare place has been fine thus far. It's nice to actually use what mental capacity I have. It's sort of amusing that I'm ending up in a branch of the healthcare field. Granted, I'm in charge of organizing and updating ongoing research grants, but still, it's a temp job that doesn't involve filing or labeling or other random functions that someone who's brain was oozing out of their ears could still manage to accopmlish.
I'm happy here but not complete. I have no money and I'm tired of living off the tiniest amount of money. I miss music. I miss singing and performing. I miss rehearsal. I'm unfulfilled. I'm just thankful I'm able to put my finger down on what it is that makes me feel this way. I also miss the people who just understand me. I thought I would have friends like that here, but with the exception of a couple, I've been a little disappointed. I really need to stop complaining - I know things could be much worse. I should be counting my blessings. I'm just being emo.
I'm a freaking gimp. I have this stupid air cast that I have to wear all weekend. I look ridiculous. I let a sprain go for too long and now I'm bound to this inconvenient, uncomfortable, bulky, itchy and awkward leg/ankle brace/air cast shit. I even had to go to pediatric emergency care because the hospital ushers anyone 21 and under to that wing of the hospital. Then I waited 3 hours for them to tell me I had a sprain (quel surprise). And getting home was more difficult than if I had tried to cook thanksgiving dinner on my own. Halloween is not a good night to travel. Let's also talk about how I accidentally went the wrong way on the bus, so I hopped off at a T station. Then I had to transfer trains, but the station in the opposite direction was closed. So, I traveled back in a stop to transfer over to an outbound change. I finally arrived home at 8:30. Happy Halloween.
I will promptly stop complaining and whining and sleep. Tomorrow should prove to be an interesting day.
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