[1] Who was your last text from?
Whitney
[2] Where was your default pic taken?
A drag bar in Fort Lauderdale
[3] Your relationship status?
Single
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yes, but just due to life.
[5] What is your current mood?
Dead. So so dead.
[6] What are your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Allison and Robin.
[7]Where do you wish you were right now?
Asleep.
[8] Have a crazy side?
I guess?
[9]Ever had a near death experience?
Unfortunately.
[10] Something you do a lot?
Laugh and Sing and Cry and Hug and be happy. Wow more lame sounding.
[11] Angry at anyone?
Not at all.
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
I don't like anyone.
[14] Is there anything you are really excited about?
NEXT WEEKNED JUNE 11 TAKE YOUR TOP OFF.
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Absolutely
[16] What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Sleep. OMG sleep.
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Whitney.
[18] What is your favorite song?
Too many. Right now, i'm a fan of Adam Lambert's Mad World (OMG I'm SUCH A DWEEB)
[19] What are you doing right now?
Going. to. bed.
[20] Who do you trust right now?
A few people, but they are teh bezt.
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Forever 21 actuallly.
[22]Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Yes
[23] Who is/are your friend(s) that live closest to you?
Rachel, Brett, Diana
[24] Describe your life in one word?
Roller coaster
[25] Who are you thinking of right now?
Sleep.
[26] What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.
[27] What are you listening to?
Rufus Wainright.
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Brett.
[29] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
My mom sort of? No yelling really involved.
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Occasionally because of nerves. But I don't like anyone.
[31] What is your natural hair color?
Dirty Blonde.
[32] Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Whitney or Andrew online. or Tess.
[33] Who was the last person to make you sad?
My Mom.
[34] What do you hear?
Coldplay.
[35] Is your hair curly or straight?
Wavyish?
[36] Do you have a best friend?
Yes, a few
[37] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Yup. And the same sex haha.
[38] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Occasionally
[39] Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. All the time - especially in high school.
[41] Are you happy with life right now?
It's been better and it's been worse. I'm content enough.
[42] Are you currently jealous?
Nope
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Ring on right ring finger, watch and tiffany necklace
[44] What were you doing Friday night?
Rehearsal.
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
Not really to my knowledge.
[48] What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Oh god.
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?
11 because i'mstupid.
l50]Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Water
2. last phone call = Tess
3. last text message = Whitney
4. last song you listened to = Circus by Britney Spears (don't judge)
5. last time you cried = Today ugh.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes
7. been cheated on = I don't think so.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Eh, not really.
9. lost someone special = Not really
10. been depressed = Yes
11. been drunk and threw up = Yesbutthatsmylife.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Green
13. Blue
14. Teal
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yup
16. Fallen out of love = No
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes
18. Met someone who changed you = Honestly, I don't think I have
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes. Oh my goodness yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Oh whatever probably?
21. Kissed someone on your friends list = Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = I would like to say that i know all of my friends in real life
23. How many kids do you want to have = Two - a boy and a girl. More cliche caroline.
24. Do you have any pets = Melodyyyyy
25. Do you want to change your name = When I was 5, i thought it would be an awesome idea to change my name to Rainbow Sparkle Diamond Bright. Looking back on it, I'm set with Caroline.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = 21st - went to bars in Cambridge and drank my life away.
27. What time did you wake up today = 7:15 AM. The real world sucks.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = JUNE 10TH.
30. Do you have plants = No?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = I wish I could delete this year from my life. And I would also wish I had a better appreciation of college when I was in it.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes. What a dumb question.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? This fucking COLD.
35. Most visited webpage? Oh my god. Twitter may be upping facebook. Or email.
36. Whats your real name? Caroline Christine Oliveira
37. Nicknames? Sweet Caroline, Caralala, Caca, Carebear. I think that's it.
38. Relationship Status? Single
39. Zodiac sign? Libra
40. Male or female? Female
41. Elementary? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
42. Middle School? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
43. High school/College? = Dreyfoos School of the Arts/FSU
44. Hair colour? Brown
45. Long or short? Shortish?
46. Height? = 5'6"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? No, actually.
48: What do you like about yourself? I'm pretty nice.
49. Piercing? 2 in each ear.
50. Tattoos? None
51. Righty or lefty? = Righty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery? Wisdom teeth.
53. First piercing? Earrings
54. First best friend? Sasha or Meerali at Pine Crest
55. First sport you joined? Tennis
56. First vacation? Oh my god I have no idea. We were traveling when I was tiny.
58. First pair of trainers = What? What is this?
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = I had a smoothie a few hours ago?
60. Drinking = Water still
61. I'm about to = Go to bed
62. Listening to = Falling Away with You by Muse (So much less judgement now)
63. Waiting on = Mucinex to kick in.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Yes
65. Get Married? = Yes.
66. Career? = Music somehow in there. I would love to be self sufficient financially off of my voice.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice butt or nice legs = Butt i guess?
73. Sensitive or loud? = Depends
74. Hook-up or relationship? Sigh. Overall relationship. Right now in my life, just hook-up.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? Yes
77. Drank hard liquor? Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
79. Sex on first date = Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart? Yes
81. Had your own heart broken? Yes
82. Been arrested ? Nope
83. Turned someone down? Yes
84. Cried when someone died? Yes
85. Fallen for a friend? I guess so.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself? Lately? No.
87. Miracles? Yes
88. Love at first sight? I'm skeptical
89. Heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = No
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = Yes
93. Ghosts = Sometimes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = No
95. Did you sing today? Yes, but not to my best judgement
96. Ever cheated on somebody? Never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you? About a year and a half. Last January maybe? I would love to relive Spring 2008.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it? Right after spring Semester got out last year was pretty awesome.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Right now, yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Nowhere where anyone will read it.
1. last beverage = Water
2. last phone call = Tess
3. last text message = Whitney
4. last song you listened to = Circus by Britney Spears (don't judge)
5. last time you cried = Today ugh.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes
7. been cheated on = I don't think so.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Eh, not really.
9. lost someone special = Not really
10. been depressed = Yes
11. been drunk and threw up = Yesbutthatsmylife.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Green
13. Blue
14. Teal
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yup
16. Fallen out of love = No
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes
18. Met someone who changed you = Honestly, I don't think I have
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes. Oh my goodness yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Oh whatever probably?
21. Kissed someone on your friends list = Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = I would like to say that i know all of my friends in real life
23. How many kids do you want to have = Two - a boy and a girl. More cliche caroline.
24. Do you have any pets = Melodyyyyy
25. Do you want to change your name = When I was 5, i thought it would be an awesome idea to change my name to Rainbow Sparkle Diamond Bright. Looking back on it, I'm set with Caroline.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = 21st - went to bars in Cambridge and drank my life away.
27. What time did you wake up today = 7:15 AM. The real world sucks.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = JUNE 10TH.
30. Do you have plants = No?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = I wish I could delete this year from my life. And I would also wish I had a better appreciation of college when I was in it.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes. What a dumb question.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? This fucking COLD.
35. Most visited webpage? Oh my god. Twitter may be upping facebook. Or email.
36. Whats your real name? Caroline Christine Oliveira
37. Nicknames? Sweet Caroline, Caralala, Caca, Carebear. I think that's it.
38. Relationship Status? Single
39. Zodiac sign? Libra
40. Male or female? Female
41. Elementary? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
42. Middle School? Pine Crest School Boca Raton
43. High school/College? = Dreyfoos School of the Arts/FSU
44. Hair colour? Brown
45. Long or short? Shortish?
46. Height? = 5'6"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? No, actually.
48: What do you like about yourself? I'm pretty nice.
49. Piercing? 2 in each ear.
50. Tattoos? None
51. Righty or lefty? = Righty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery? Wisdom teeth.
53. First piercing? Earrings
54. First best friend? Sasha or Meerali at Pine Crest
55. First sport you joined? Tennis
56. First vacation? Oh my god I have no idea. We were traveling when I was tiny.
58. First pair of trainers = What? What is this?
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = I had a smoothie a few hours ago?
60. Drinking = Water still
61. I'm about to = Go to bed
62. Listening to = Falling Away with You by Muse (So much less judgement now)
63. Waiting on = Mucinex to kick in.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Yes
65. Get Married? = Yes.
66. Career? = Music somehow in there. I would love to be self sufficient financially off of my voice.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice butt or nice legs = Butt i guess?
73. Sensitive or loud? = Depends
74. Hook-up or relationship? Sigh. Overall relationship. Right now in my life, just hook-up.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? Yes
77. Drank hard liquor? Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
79. Sex on first date = Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart? Yes
81. Had your own heart broken? Yes
82. Been arrested ? Nope
83. Turned someone down? Yes
84. Cried when someone died? Yes
85. Fallen for a friend? I guess so.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself? Lately? No.
87. Miracles? Yes
88. Love at first sight? I'm skeptical
89. Heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = No
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = Yes
93. Ghosts = Sometimes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = No
95. Did you sing today? Yes, but not to my best judgement
96. Ever cheated on somebody? Never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you? About a year and a half. Last January maybe? I would love to relive Spring 2008.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it? Right after spring Semester got out last year was pretty awesome.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Right now, yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Nowhere where anyone will read it.
Friday, May 29, 2009
I think I'm just going to use this blog for my own personal surveys.
More things about me no one ever wanted or needed to know.
If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Pasquini.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. Urgent Care for ankle.
When were you on the phone last? And with who?
2 minutes ago with Nicole.
What are you excited for?
I think Tallahassee? I'll know tomorrow.
What were you doing yesterday?
Dying physically, working and talking to CMD
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Mom.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Wine.
Have a best friend?
Can officially count on one hand today - Whitney, CMD, Brett, Tess and Diana
Are you scared to fall in love?
No, but I'm reluctant.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes, but they don't know what they are getting into.
Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Honestly the two off.
What time is it right this second?
10:29
What do you want right now?
A hug.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Probably Rachel?
When was the last time you cried?
10 minutes ago.
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Definitely.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
At first.
How fast does your mind change?
Life decisions, very slowly. Home decor and fashion, it's like men thinking about sex. Every seven seconds.
I bet you miss somebody right now.
Always.
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No, but tomorrow is a new day.
Why do you think so many people cheat?
Looking for something new? bored?
Tell me what's on your mind?
I'd rather just let tomorrow be tomorrow.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
West. Palm. Beach.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yes, Halloween 2003.
When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
UM I guess earlier today?
When is your next road trip?
Tomorrow?
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes.
How's your heart?
A little deflated.
Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Yes.
Do you think somebody's in love with you?
No.
What are you planning on doing after this?
Bed. Burning CDs. Packing.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes.
Who do you not get along with?
Michelle Eston
What does your 3rd most recent text say?
"Of course babes!"
What are you wearing right now?
T-shirt, sweat pants
When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
NO idea.
What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Cameron and Cecilia right this second i guess.
How did you feel when you woke up?
Um, pain.
Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not particularly.
Do you crack your knuckles?
Nope.
What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Talking to CMD on the phone.
What are your LEGAL initials?
CCO
Who's the first B in your contacts?
Brett.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Last night with CMD.
Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Yes.
Last awkward moment?
Today phone.
Are you afraid of the dark?
Not really - I used to be!
Do you have good vision?
Not great not horrid.
Have you ever tripped someone?
I don't think so...
Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.
Are you Irish?
Nope
Do you use chap stick?
Yes. I'm never without it.
Do you have any scars?
Yes. Chin. Fucking homeless bitch. And on my hand and side from rocks when I was like 10.
Is there someone you will never forgive?
Nope. Grudges waste time.
Name the last person to text you?
Monica
Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Probably. I bet i'll marry someone a lot older than me.
Can you go in public looking like you do?
Nope.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yup.
What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I sleep on the stage right side.
What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Drink.
Do you fall for people easily?
Nope.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes in rehearsal?
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yes.
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes.
Want someone back in your life?
Just want to rewind 2 years.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Yes. I will make it better.
What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
Grey.
Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
I guess so?
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yes.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Um, I'm single?
Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm usually very naturally happy.
Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Not really.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Um. Right wrist. Not really sure what.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
More often than I should sometimes.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Depends.
If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Pasquini.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. Urgent Care for ankle.
When were you on the phone last? And with who?
2 minutes ago with Nicole.
What are you excited for?
I think Tallahassee? I'll know tomorrow.
What were you doing yesterday?
Dying physically, working and talking to CMD
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Mom.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Wine.
Have a best friend?
Can officially count on one hand today - Whitney, CMD, Brett, Tess and Diana
Are you scared to fall in love?
No, but I'm reluctant.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes, but they don't know what they are getting into.
Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Honestly the two off.
What time is it right this second?
10:29
What do you want right now?
A hug.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Probably Rachel?
When was the last time you cried?
10 minutes ago.
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Definitely.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
At first.
How fast does your mind change?
Life decisions, very slowly. Home decor and fashion, it's like men thinking about sex. Every seven seconds.
I bet you miss somebody right now.
Always.
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No, but tomorrow is a new day.
Why do you think so many people cheat?
Looking for something new? bored?
Tell me what's on your mind?
I'd rather just let tomorrow be tomorrow.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
West. Palm. Beach.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yes, Halloween 2003.
When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
UM I guess earlier today?
When is your next road trip?
Tomorrow?
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes.
How's your heart?
A little deflated.
Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Yes.
Do you think somebody's in love with you?
No.
What are you planning on doing after this?
Bed. Burning CDs. Packing.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes.
Who do you not get along with?
Michelle Eston
What does your 3rd most recent text say?
"Of course babes!"
What are you wearing right now?
T-shirt, sweat pants
When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
NO idea.
What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Cameron and Cecilia right this second i guess.
How did you feel when you woke up?
Um, pain.
Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not particularly.
Do you crack your knuckles?
Nope.
What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Talking to CMD on the phone.
What are your LEGAL initials?
CCO
Who's the first B in your contacts?
Brett.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Last night with CMD.
Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Yes.
Last awkward moment?
Today phone.
Are you afraid of the dark?
Not really - I used to be!
Do you have good vision?
Not great not horrid.
Have you ever tripped someone?
I don't think so...
Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.
Are you Irish?
Nope
Do you use chap stick?
Yes. I'm never without it.
Do you have any scars?
Yes. Chin. Fucking homeless bitch. And on my hand and side from rocks when I was like 10.
Is there someone you will never forgive?
Nope. Grudges waste time.
Name the last person to text you?
Monica
Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Probably. I bet i'll marry someone a lot older than me.
Can you go in public looking like you do?
Nope.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yup.
What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I sleep on the stage right side.
What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Drink.
Do you fall for people easily?
Nope.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes in rehearsal?
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yes.
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes.
Want someone back in your life?
Just want to rewind 2 years.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Yes. I will make it better.
What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
Grey.
Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
I guess so?
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yes.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Um, I'm single?
Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm usually very naturally happy.
Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Not really.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Um. Right wrist. Not really sure what.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
More often than I should sometimes.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Depends.
Friday, November 21, 2008
En Route
Technology is amazing. I'm on a bus traveling to NYC right now with internet access. INTERNET access. Well, I'm amazed by this.
On the down side, it's really quite uncomfortable and I'm feeling somewhat claustrophobic in this window seat with the guy in front of me seat reclined. All complaining aside though, I'm making the quickest trip known to man to spend approximately 8 hours of gloriousness with Rebecca, my lovah. Yeah, you would totally do this too if you were in my position.
Work week 2 down. I'm just so glad I'm employed. And it's a casual office with really nice people. I just hope I'm doing a good job. It's a little hard to tell since I don't know what I'm comparing myself to. Yet again, I am the youngest person in the office. The average age is early 30s I would guess, but I'm still the youngest by a year or so.
I've been having regrets about graduating early. I don't know how my family would have done it financially speaking and I don't know what classes I would have taken. I would have probably been extremely unhappy. But, it would have been comfortable. I would have been with my friends. I would have been able to see some of the people I love more than life itself every day. Not all of them - one's in Virginia and two are actually with me in Boston, but I would have been able to see most of them. And regardless, I've been so strange lately and impossible to reach (both on the phone and in any sort of emotional sense.) But it still would have been safe.
Thanksgiving is on Thursday. For the first time in 20 years, I won't be at home and I'm not sure what I'm doing. And it's strange. And I won't be home on Christmas Eve either. That is another thing I miss about school - the ability to have vacations that span weeks.
I'm at a turning poing - hopefully a turning point of the better. We'll see.
On the down side, it's really quite uncomfortable and I'm feeling somewhat claustrophobic in this window seat with the guy in front of me seat reclined. All complaining aside though, I'm making the quickest trip known to man to spend approximately 8 hours of gloriousness with Rebecca, my lovah. Yeah, you would totally do this too if you were in my position.
Work week 2 down. I'm just so glad I'm employed. And it's a casual office with really nice people. I just hope I'm doing a good job. It's a little hard to tell since I don't know what I'm comparing myself to. Yet again, I am the youngest person in the office. The average age is early 30s I would guess, but I'm still the youngest by a year or so.
I've been having regrets about graduating early. I don't know how my family would have done it financially speaking and I don't know what classes I would have taken. I would have probably been extremely unhappy. But, it would have been comfortable. I would have been with my friends. I would have been able to see some of the people I love more than life itself every day. Not all of them - one's in Virginia and two are actually with me in Boston, but I would have been able to see most of them. And regardless, I've been so strange lately and impossible to reach (both on the phone and in any sort of emotional sense.) But it still would have been safe.
Thanksgiving is on Thursday. For the first time in 20 years, I won't be at home and I'm not sure what I'm doing. And it's strange. And I won't be home on Christmas Eve either. That is another thing I miss about school - the ability to have vacations that span weeks.
I'm at a turning poing - hopefully a turning point of the better. We'll see.
Friday, October 31, 2008
All Hallow's Eve
Working 8 to 5 makes you tired. Even though have the day I email everyone I know.
I'm going to start writing in this blog more often now. How in the world am I going to be able to look back at this time in my life if I don't record it?
This economy proves to be the most terrible time ever to try to find a job. Be happy if you're still in college. After countless interviews and less than a week of temping, I'm hoping that one of the interviews I've had recently will pan out.
Last weekend Caitlin and I went out toe harvard for a party and out to a club afterwards. Harvard people are not friendly and I know that yahtzee could be a clique, but I'm not sure even one person came to talk to us. And we were epically underdressed. Too pretentious for me. The only way we would have fit in the entire evening would have been for us to go find our formal wear, load on the make up and through on those 3 inch heels. We embraced our fashion "disaster" according to Harvard and danced in our own corner. We made a random friend (who I discovered to be about 29 after talking with him) who followed us and stuck with us but was painfully shy.
I met my future husband last week while waiting for almost an hour in a line outside a bar. Granted, he didn't know he was my future husband, but that's neither here nor there. He had some fancy job with computer software in the financial district and was so much fun and cute. But we never got into the club so we all parted ways. Knowing my luck, he's probably gay.
Temping in this healthcare place has been fine thus far. It's nice to actually use what mental capacity I have. It's sort of amusing that I'm ending up in a branch of the healthcare field. Granted, I'm in charge of organizing and updating ongoing research grants, but still, it's a temp job that doesn't involve filing or labeling or other random functions that someone who's brain was oozing out of their ears could still manage to accopmlish.
I'm happy here but not complete. I have no money and I'm tired of living off the tiniest amount of money. I miss music. I miss singing and performing. I miss rehearsal. I'm unfulfilled. I'm just thankful I'm able to put my finger down on what it is that makes me feel this way. I also miss the people who just understand me. I thought I would have friends like that here, but with the exception of a couple, I've been a little disappointed. I really need to stop complaining - I know things could be much worse. I should be counting my blessings. I'm just being emo.
I'm a freaking gimp. I have this stupid air cast that I have to wear all weekend. I look ridiculous. I let a sprain go for too long and now I'm bound to this inconvenient, uncomfortable, bulky, itchy and awkward leg/ankle brace/air cast shit. I even had to go to pediatric emergency care because the hospital ushers anyone 21 and under to that wing of the hospital. Then I waited 3 hours for them to tell me I had a sprain (quel surprise). And getting home was more difficult than if I had tried to cook thanksgiving dinner on my own. Halloween is not a good night to travel. Let's also talk about how I accidentally went the wrong way on the bus, so I hopped off at a T station. Then I had to transfer trains, but the station in the opposite direction was closed. So, I traveled back in a stop to transfer over to an outbound change. I finally arrived home at 8:30. Happy Halloween.
I will promptly stop complaining and whining and sleep. Tomorrow should prove to be an interesting day.
I'm going to start writing in this blog more often now. How in the world am I going to be able to look back at this time in my life if I don't record it?
This economy proves to be the most terrible time ever to try to find a job. Be happy if you're still in college. After countless interviews and less than a week of temping, I'm hoping that one of the interviews I've had recently will pan out.
Last weekend Caitlin and I went out toe harvard for a party and out to a club afterwards. Harvard people are not friendly and I know that yahtzee could be a clique, but I'm not sure even one person came to talk to us. And we were epically underdressed. Too pretentious for me. The only way we would have fit in the entire evening would have been for us to go find our formal wear, load on the make up and through on those 3 inch heels. We embraced our fashion "disaster" according to Harvard and danced in our own corner. We made a random friend (who I discovered to be about 29 after talking with him) who followed us and stuck with us but was painfully shy.
I met my future husband last week while waiting for almost an hour in a line outside a bar. Granted, he didn't know he was my future husband, but that's neither here nor there. He had some fancy job with computer software in the financial district and was so much fun and cute. But we never got into the club so we all parted ways. Knowing my luck, he's probably gay.
Temping in this healthcare place has been fine thus far. It's nice to actually use what mental capacity I have. It's sort of amusing that I'm ending up in a branch of the healthcare field. Granted, I'm in charge of organizing and updating ongoing research grants, but still, it's a temp job that doesn't involve filing or labeling or other random functions that someone who's brain was oozing out of their ears could still manage to accopmlish.
I'm happy here but not complete. I have no money and I'm tired of living off the tiniest amount of money. I miss music. I miss singing and performing. I miss rehearsal. I'm unfulfilled. I'm just thankful I'm able to put my finger down on what it is that makes me feel this way. I also miss the people who just understand me. I thought I would have friends like that here, but with the exception of a couple, I've been a little disappointed. I really need to stop complaining - I know things could be much worse. I should be counting my blessings. I'm just being emo.
I'm a freaking gimp. I have this stupid air cast that I have to wear all weekend. I look ridiculous. I let a sprain go for too long and now I'm bound to this inconvenient, uncomfortable, bulky, itchy and awkward leg/ankle brace/air cast shit. I even had to go to pediatric emergency care because the hospital ushers anyone 21 and under to that wing of the hospital. Then I waited 3 hours for them to tell me I had a sprain (quel surprise). And getting home was more difficult than if I had tried to cook thanksgiving dinner on my own. Halloween is not a good night to travel. Let's also talk about how I accidentally went the wrong way on the bus, so I hopped off at a T station. Then I had to transfer trains, but the station in the opposite direction was closed. So, I traveled back in a stop to transfer over to an outbound change. I finally arrived home at 8:30. Happy Halloween.
I will promptly stop complaining and whining and sleep. Tomorrow should prove to be an interesting day.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
summary.
Oh my GOD i miss the East coast. It's not just a place, it's a mentality. I can truly say that now that I've lived here on the "other" coast.
I miss Whitney and Christopher. and Rebecca and Monica. Too much.
I miss my family.
I miss the other time zone.
I miss my days having structure.
I miss the average age of people that I hang out with at least being a double digit number.
It's hard. I keep reminding myself that this was a decision that I made. It was made in a bit of a low time, but it was one that I made. I could be somewhere comfortable and familiar and I chose to do this. But at the same time, it has been a good experience. I have learned a tremendous amount about kids and the opera world. I still don't know what I want out of my future and it's hard having no purpose educationally or musically. I really do miss singing.
But, today is the halfway mark. I've been here for 3 weeks and I have 3 weeks left. I can and can not believe how fast it went.
October make me anxious. Good and bad anxious. This will probably be one of the scariest months of my life. No job, little money and a new city. But I know I have friends that I miss dearly that will be there waiting. That are there now waiting, with their arms open. I just have to get there and keep swimming.
I miss Whitney and Christopher. and Rebecca and Monica. Too much.
I miss my family.
I miss the other time zone.
I miss my days having structure.
I miss the average age of people that I hang out with at least being a double digit number.
It's hard. I keep reminding myself that this was a decision that I made. It was made in a bit of a low time, but it was one that I made. I could be somewhere comfortable and familiar and I chose to do this. But at the same time, it has been a good experience. I have learned a tremendous amount about kids and the opera world. I still don't know what I want out of my future and it's hard having no purpose educationally or musically. I really do miss singing.
But, today is the halfway mark. I've been here for 3 weeks and I have 3 weeks left. I can and can not believe how fast it went.
October make me anxious. Good and bad anxious. This will probably be one of the scariest months of my life. No job, little money and a new city. But I know I have friends that I miss dearly that will be there waiting. That are there now waiting, with their arms open. I just have to get there and keep swimming.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Starstruck
So, here I am across the country with one friend within a 300 mile radius.
I sat in the "VIP" section for Verdi's Simon Boccanegra this evening.
While waiting for my ride home at the stage door, I chatted with Dmitri Hvorostovsky, the baritone lead in the opera. http://www.hvorostovsky.com/
Then, congratulated the most amazingly talented and gracious tenor on a magnificent performance while he met up with his girlfriend.
Following that I discussed on the ride home my interpretation and feelings of the opera with the Conductor.
And after a glass of wine back at home, I was given a special pass to see the dress rehearsal for a world premiere of a different opera tomorrow evening since they both have previous engagements.
I am the luckiest girl ever.
And I am finally reminded of why I love music this evening. Thank you, Verdi.
Graduating early and coming to San Francisco was the best decision I could have ever made.
I truly miss singing and can't wait to start back up again. Music is amazing.
I sat in the "VIP" section for Verdi's Simon Boccanegra this evening.
While waiting for my ride home at the stage door, I chatted with Dmitri Hvorostovsky, the baritone lead in the opera. http://www.hvorostovsky.com/
Then, congratulated the most amazingly talented and gracious tenor on a magnificent performance while he met up with his girlfriend.
Following that I discussed on the ride home my interpretation and feelings of the opera with the Conductor.
And after a glass of wine back at home, I was given a special pass to see the dress rehearsal for a world premiere of a different opera tomorrow evening since they both have previous engagements.
I am the luckiest girl ever.
And I am finally reminded of why I love music this evening. Thank you, Verdi.
Graduating early and coming to San Francisco was the best decision I could have ever made.
I truly miss singing and can't wait to start back up again. Music is amazing.
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